Keep in mind today that any discomfort brought on by change will be overshadowed by the positive results that are caused by change. Embracing change can give us the strength and courage to persevere through the uncertainties that await us. While change can often create positive results in our lives, we might not always feel ready for these changes. If we can remember that resisting change will cause struggle, we can choose to embrace the process of change and consciously go with the flow rather than holding ourselves back. We then feel stronger and more optimistic about dealing with the consequences of change. If you can release your hesitation and allow change to transform your life today, you may find that you are thrilled with what achieving your goals can do for you.
That was my Daily Om horoscope (scorpio) today… which is totally amusing since I just got back home from doing something totally out of my comfort range. First, I got up and drank a very strong cup of coffee (coffee w/ chickory.. aka “Liquid Courage”) so that I was all caffinated and ready to face the day. Next, I went outside and used the jumper box to jump start my car (beastie needs a new battery) ALL BY MYSELF… and did NOT blow up! (hooray.. success!!) and then… I drove myself* to the gas station and then to the emissions testing place (completely out of my comfort range.. I usually can only make it to the local grocery store without freezing up..) to get my car checked. HOORAY –IT PASSED! Then.. in an act of courage so shocking I surprised myself.. I pulled out of the emissions place ACROSS TRAFFIC ( I turned left.. I’m usually not, as Zoolander would say, “an ambi-turner”) and went down to the tag office to get my plates renewed.
I’m now home safe and (relatively) sound - a new silver “October 2008″ sticker on my license plate.. and I am TOTALLY proud of myself. I’ve probably got a few gray hairs and I know I’ve got a few more knots in my tail today from the anxiety but I’m disgustingly thrilled with myself for having the guts to drive.
*For those of you who don’t know.. I was in a rather serious car accident a few years ago and it shook me up pretty bad ( I was driving.. and had my son in the car) and ever since I was really shaky and unsure behind the wheel. When we came down here to Georgia I had a second accident (again.. with my son in the car.. and again.. not my fault) which pretty much did me in as far as confidence and driving was concerned. I’ve spent the last 2 years barely driving at all.. I go to the grocery store down the road and won’t go beyond it. My car is basically falling apart and isn’t reliable.. but its safe to drive short distances. It was the fear that kept me trapped in my little area of the city. Today I went on a road I haven’t been on in at least a year.. a road which leads to my LYS! I’m hoping that I’ll be able to go down to the yarn shop myself in the next month.